Tuesday, September 28, 2004

From Rensie's blog, "Me, On Love" (cut version)... Maybe I should've just put a link but here, I can add my comments!

Many term love as a feeling. Something inside of you telling you that you like this girl, and you should go for it. But the thing is, you never really know with feelings. If you haven't exeprienced it, how do you know if it really is love? I've heard people say "You just know". But what if you realize that you thought wrong? Just go and break up? That'll hurt both of you, especially if the other is still feeling the same way. ouch to the max!

And it's usually a guessing game, not knowing if the other still feels the same way esp. if the other doesn't act the same as before. After all, change is the only constant thing in this world. Feelings can change. And when you feel as if the other person's feelings are changing (with or without proof, with or without basis), you go into anxiety mode and you start using defense mechanisms - making up excuses for the other persons behavior.

My point is, feelings are not tangible, so there's no way to actually be sure of it. The feeling could've been there for a fleeting moment, but then it was gone. Is that love? Love as a feeling, it just doesn't hold long enough.

You felt something was there but the other person says there wasn't anything at all. Even if it seemed to you and everyone else that there was something special going on. Something like that happening makes you paranoid about love. What if that happens everytime you think that something special is happening between you and another person?

Love should be eternal. Fine, I admit I really don't know what love is, but the point I'm making is in another realm of this 'love' business. And that's in relationships.

Rensie is a highly credible source when it comes to this topic. (according to me haha)

I believe that this love should not be left as a feeling. One must not only act, but make a choice (of course making a choice is an act). A firm resolve to love. That choice will be the one that keeps you together forever. The feeling may change and develop, but it will go through hard times where it will be doubted. At times, it might even disappear, but, the decision will always be there and, in time, the feeling will come back, more mature and developed.

The wise man builds his house upon a rock, not sand. You must have good reasons before deciding and remember those reasons when the rains come. There's a saying "what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger." What doesn't kill a relationship only makes it stronger I guess.

Now you may ask, what if this feeling is one way? First you have to find out. Now if it really is just one way, then either wait for her to change, or go looking somewhere else. It might hurt a lot, but it's really of no use to keep on trying to have a relationship with someone who doesn't feel the same way, or never will. Just move on. A love will come to you some time who will love you back. that's the time you both can make the choice.

I guess it's harder for girls - even if society is already "modern," it just looks bad for the girl to initiate things. My mom says "it's harder for guys to fall in love with a girl they aren't interested in. A girl can fall in love with a guy who perseveres." (in other words, nakulitan sya kay dad kaya nag"i do" nalang hehe jk) Hm...

I ended up rambling just like Rensie LOL I guess that's it for tonight. Have to sleep early. I still haven't done my third exercise session for the week ("week" ends tomorrow so will probably do it tomorrow).


I really hope to get the ACP class about the Da Vinci Code. But I'm having second thoughts cause it might be one of those preachy lectures. Wondering if I should just go to IISDC again. We'll see... Posted by Hello

Thursday, September 23, 2004

Before anything else, the Amazing Race 5 just ended. Let me just congratulate my abandoned building for being part of international television!!!! Wheee... Oh right congrats to Chip & Kim too. They turned evil at the last part of the game but... they won right? At least Colin & Christie didn't win. hehe But they're good... If I were part of the Amazing Race... what would be amazing is how fast I get eliminated.

This week, stuff I finished:
PE 101 reporting
Psy 101 project
Psy 102 long test - got a 62/65
Theo paper first draft
Palawan project
SA ethnography

I also got my 2nd Fil Long Test - and escaped with a B+! Yey! And, not to brag or anything (yea ok, to brag haha) my teacher said it's the hardest of all the long tests *happy happy* So I treated myself to a sundae in McDo (c/o shillie! Thank you shillie *ü*) and regular fries.

Tomorrow is my 2nd Theo long test. And here I am lounging around - after getting an F for Monday's quiz (probably an F, he hasn't returned the quiz yet). I've been home since around 2:30 and I've only finished 20 pages (out of 98). In fairness, I did throw in around 26 mins. for treadmill hehe (Then I ended up watching Amazing Race again and Samurai X) Yes, I've started to exercise - take that as an indication of how fat I already am.

Stuff for sale: (if interested, leave a comment por favor)

Ten's nuggets! Like McDo nuggets cause they are McDo nuggets - only cheaper: P180 for 22-25 pieces (1/2 kilo). MmmmcSarap!

Chase's flash drives! 128 MB for P1,500; 256 MB for P2,250; 512MB for P3,750 and 1 GB for as low as P7,800.... and a one year warranty to top it all off!

Val's USHER tickets! Watch him live in Manila for P500 (free seating), P1,500 (free seating), P2,500 (reserved seats) and P3,500 (reserved seats). This will happen in mid-November at the CCP open field.

Christy's magic wallets! Comes in two-toned colors at the low low price of P160.

Check back soon for Chase's Food for the Gods (available for Christmas) - a dozen perfect treats for Gods, Goddesses, men, women, children, animals, aliens and more! Delivered in a basket, wrapped in cellophane.

Is it just me, or am I being used as a billboard? Hmm... must charge advertisement fee haha

Saturday, September 18, 2004

I got a glitter tattoo for only 40 bux! The guy said it can last for 5-10 days - waterproof wheee I decided to put it on my neck cause I don't have that many short sleeve shirts. Besides it keeps on raining these days I don't want to wear short sleeve shirts hehe Posted by Hello

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

Just got back from Araneta - the first time for me to watch a basketball game live. We lost to DLSU *sniffles* Still, it was an interesting experience. I miss the commentators though. Without them, I couldn't figure out what was happening. It helps to be seated beside someone who plays basketball... *thank you Krissy for the explanations, the ticket and transpo hehe*

I'm watching Lysistrata in UP tomorrow. Don't know what it's about exactly. I'm supposed to make a reflection paper on it for SA class. In other words, I'll be home late again tomorrow. It's not such a big deal cause Fil and SA already burdened us with two long quizzes today. I got a minus one in SA (stupidity, sheer stupidity) and for Fil, I really think I failed miserably... I left two numbers blank, answered one number halfway, and just invented others. At least I got the two-point bonus right hehehe

I'm tired.. And all I did was... stand and cheer a bit... -_-zZ sleepy

Sunday, September 12, 2004

Parang anghel... Posted by Hello

Saturday, September 11, 2004

OK here you go: an update on my current academic standing...

Psy101 - I dunno if I'm at A or B+ standing. Somewhere in between.
Psy102 - B+ cause I missed two exercises (arg) because I had to absent myself one Tuesday. I can still reach A. I think.
Th121 - If I don't get another 0 in a quiz, I think I can pull off with a C+ or B.
PE101 - exempted in the third LT and finals! Reporting on Monday and Wednesday.
Fil14 - ummm. That's the best I can say. Just two days ago, ma'am announced that I'm the highest in the class for the objective part of the 2nd LT (50 pts!). I hope she liked our reporting... and the finals project! we haven't even started and the other group has rehearsals under way already!
SA21 - probably an A.

That's about it.

Friday, September 10, 2004

My gift from birthdayalarm.com : a sample astrology report. Have to pay $5 to get a full-length report. weh. Commercialism.
Section 1: The Inner You: Your Real MotivationAt heart you are modest and humble, and you rarely strive to be in the limelight or in a position of power. You have a sharp analytical mind, a keen eye for detail, and you prefer to observe, dissect, and study life from a distance. Conscientious and conservative, you can be relied upon to be careful, efficient, and thorough in your work and you take pride in doing a job well. What you may lack in self-confidence you often make up for in skill - developing expertise, technical knowledge, and competency in some specialized area. You are adept at using your hands to create or fix things, and meticulous attention to detail and careful craftsmanship are your forte. Some would say you are a little TOO meticulous, for you can be extremely critical and petty if everything is not done exactly as you think it should be, and you worry about things that other people consider trivial and unimportant. You like to organize, categorize, and arrange everything into a logical system, and you are often distinctly uncomfortable when something does not fit into a neat category. Disorganization vexes you. You probably wish that you were not such a perfectionist, for besides being a stickler for details, you can be mercilessly self-critical as well. Whether in your environment or in yourself, you tend to focus on the flaws, with a desire to improve, refine, and perfect. You are strictly factual, truthful, and scrupulously honest in your self-estimation, and you often do not give yourself enough praise or credit.

Section 2: Mental Interests and AbilitiesYou are an exacting perfectionist with a clear, logical, analytical mind and an aptitude for work that requires meticulous attention to detail and efficient organization. Well-grounded and pragmatic, you tend to develop specialized skills and technical expertise in some practical field. Knowledge, ideas, and theories don't really interest you unless they are useful in a tangible way. You are inclined to analyze, measure, and dissect everything and to miss nuances, subtle shades of feeling and meaning. Your strengths are in your precise thinking, careful craftsmanship, and mastery of technical skills. You tend to be very good at what you do and critical of others' work if it does not meet your high standards.

Today was a good day I guess. Mom allowed me to sleep in till around 7am (I usually get up at 6). Looked at my phone and saw that 10 people greeted me while I was still asleep hehe First person I saw when I got to school was twin haha she was also the first person to greet me happy birthday at midnight hehe Nothing particularly of note for psy101 and stat. Got back theo quiz - got an A! yey hehe someone came to school and bought me a Coke *Ü* hihi I'm glad he was able to come...plus, I got my lab breakage refund (almost as good as getting an angpao!). I treated the room people to 2 boxes of yellow cab pizza and 2 1.5 L of Coke... think it was too much? yummy naman. Went to visit angkong at the hospital. Supposed to have dinner out with FAMILY. But dad's talking to a fish person. Sheesh. as usual. Should've just stayed in school. Oh. Alis na raw. Update more later...

Thursday, September 9, 2004

You speak eloquently and have seemingly read every
book ever published. You are a fountain of
endless (sometimes useless) knowledge, and
never fail to impress at a party.
What people love: You can answer almost any
question people ask, and have thus been
nicknamed Jeeves.
What people hate: You constantly correct their
grammar and insult their paperbacks.

What Kind of Elitist Are You?
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True enough I think. I don't insult paperbacks though - cause I'm the one who loves them nyahaha But the grammar bit is a habit I picked up from working on the yearbook too much. Not yet finished. I can't answer almost any question asked correctly but I can make up answers that sound almost logical haha of course I have to add "just kidding" afterwards. It makes for good conversation I think. Plus, I'm very interested in things I don't know so I guess that balances everything out pretty nicely. Did you know that a lemming is actually an animal? hahaha *useless knowledge but interesting nevertheless* I miss the game Lemmings... mindless little green men hehe

Tuesday, September 7, 2004


I have to report on the poem "Three O'Clock in the Morning" on Thursday. This just looked like a very appropriate survey hehe

1. Daph - usually school
2. Kim - usually family
3. nai - usually online

1. I spend wisely.
2. I can think fast.
3. I have a huge sense of responsibility.

1. I can be paranoid.
2. I always seem to have allergies - sniffling and teary-eyed.
3. My eye luggages...

1. why life is cruel to nice people
2. why education is based on grades
3. why some people are more annoying than others

1. stupid mistakes I make on tests
2. not getting what I want (I'm such a spoiled brat)
3. annoying people

1. freak accidents
2. disappearing and being forgotten
3. my hyperactive imagination when I'm alone

1. a miss call (or two hehe)
2. YM
3. sleeeeep

1. All I Ask of You
2. You (Carpenters)
3. Can't Last a Day Without You (Carpenters)

1. Pucca - she's a person!
2. Elaine
3. Mic

1. backflip - much to my chagrin, I can't even do a handstand
2. stop being a perfectionist
3. hide annoyance

1. chatting
2. writing
3. reading

1. sleep
2. shillie ^_^
3. food - um hot fudge sundae and fries from mcdo

1. housewife
2. teacher
3. writer
(yea yea shoot me, i don't plan to be a CEO)

1. UK
2. Australia
3. Japan

1. get married
2. have kids
3. watch Phantom of the Opera (theater) - just my mood right now, this varies

Thursday, September 2, 2004

Brownie- Your like a brownie you melt on people and
people stick to you your kind and affectionate.
Your a good listener whether you know it or not
and people look up to you no matter how they
act everybody has a place for you in their

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Some people wonder why I have no loyalty to Org A. After all, it's a wonderful "prestige" org. Sure. Here is an email. *Names have been deleted.

room xyz is Org A territory. but annoying theater freaks, fake video
critics and blah pol sci students are invading. sorry ____ re Org B

i was so pissed this am to go to the room and find
two theater morons eating at OUR table. one moron actually even asked me if i
was having a good day and offered me some of his sliced bananas.
id have loved to slice his off. and one of them asked me if i was
having a good day!!! EVERYONE seems to keep hanging out at our

anyway, bring your friends, lovers, crushes
whatever to hang out with in the room. _____ and _____
can keep practicing for their band--whether or not they still want to name it
the ______________ experience is of no consequence to the latest ads
project of annoying the hell out of the other orgs. it s all right to be
obnoxious--that's who we really are.

Well. If I'm affiliating myself with an organization, why would I want to affiliate myself with an org that prides itself in having obnoxious members? An org that thinks that it is better than any other organization?

Sigh. This so wasn't the post I was expecting to write in the car earlier.

Earlier I was reflecting how I've been forgetting to implement my "no regrets" way of life. That is, if faced with a decision, to ask myself what the consequences are of certain courses of action I may take. For example, to do or not to do thing A. If I do A, the possible outcome is B. If I don't do A, the possible outcome is C. Which would I regret more in the long run? B or C? At least, if I look back *my mom taught me this* I can say that the decision I made seemed the best at that time even if things did not turn out the way I wanted. Should remember more often.

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Last night, was watching the Amazing Race (yes, I turned the TV on LOL even forgot to turn it off afterwards). I think the team that I am most rooting for is Chip and Kim's. I really don't want the inflated egomaniac Colin to win because he's so mean to Christie! I also like the Brandon and Nicole team. They might have been last in the episode yesterday but I like the way they handle stress. No blaming one another at all. They're a very nice example of what a relationship between Christians should be like... or maybe I haven't seen them at their worst.

A while ago I reported about foraging. I forgot about it but my blockmate reminded me (thank you so much!) so I was able to prepare for it this morning. Yes, I really do appreciate how I'm good at oral reports because of my debate experience. However, it all goes back to attitude. I admit that during those HS competitions, my teammates and I probably had that territorial "no one else but us can wear black during a debate competition" mindframe. But we were in HS. I hope I've matured a little bit more since then, right?

So here's something to think about: is the Org A reaction any different from the Celadon reaction to the valentines' week rose booth sale of another organization? I don't think we ever called anyone freaks or morons. Maybe we were annoyed at OSA and the other org but that was the extent, right?

imysm *ü*